PERPLEXED

I was roaming in d streets
Aimlessly..
Unknowingly..
Unaware of where d path will take me to..
Lost in my own thoughts..
A hundred things crossing my mind at the same time…
and yet nothing was clarified
I was wandering then..
And I am still wandering..
No.. not in the streets,
And nowhere else
But within my own self..
I need to reflect
I need to know what I think..
That deep down what I believe
What I want..
Yet I am helpless in my own hands..
I don't know what is right
Which path is wrong or
To do what will be fine..
No one can help me
'coz I won't even allow them to..
I need separation
And yet can't be alone
I live in isolation
The next moment I am with all
Once I am laughing hard
And then my throat chokes..
With tears of helplessness in my eyes
Invisible to all..
Can u help me?
No I don't think so..
Do I want u to help?
No I don't know..
What is it that I want..
The day I'll figure out..
I'll tell u too..
As for now I am…
A girl perplexed in her own thoughts…
Just that's what I am!!!